No news is good news?

Isn't that what they say? In that case, I guess things are going well.

Sarah saw BM's sister Tuesday to let her know that we are very excited about adopting her baby and are willing to meet with her. BM's sister said she thinks BM is somewhere in the middle of the decision process, but she'll let us know when she makes some kind of decision.

We also found out that she is due in September (not even 2 months away! Eeek!) and not October.

I don't have a very good feeling about this. I feel really great about going through with it, but I don't feel like she is going to choose adoption. Maybe it's just self-preservation. And, maybe my 'feeling's don't mean much as far as the outcome anyway. I mean, I thought for sure I'd be bringing a little newborn boy home from Arkansas in February, and we saw how that turned out.

I did ask some non-legal advice from a lawyer Nestie. I found out that the process of private adoption is quite a bit more extensive than I had thought. We'll be finding a lawyer in OKC as soon as we get any word from BM. Then, it's home visits, background checks and, I'm sure, mounds of paperwork. The whole process can take up to a year, but usually a judge will grant temporary custody until the paperwork is complete.

For now, all we can do it wait. If she chooses to meet with us, I know the waiting will only be more difficult. It's hard to not get my hopes up, yet try to mentally prepare for the fact that we could be parents in less than two months.