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Sunday, July 12, 2009

don't forget...

Just a reminder to add www.waitingonforever.com to your readers!

Friday, June 26, 2009

We moved!

But not too far.

www.waitingonforever.com. Be sure to update your google readers!

I decided that I wasn't comfortable with having so many pics of J on the blog. So, from now on, the pics of our little man will be password protected. I didn't want to make the whole blog private because I love getting to share our story with so many people, but still wanted to maintain some privacy.

I know that I tend to stop following some blogs when they move but I hope I don't lose any of you! This is such an exciting time in our lives and I've been so blessed to have shared it with you all. Your prayers, support and shared excitement for us means the world!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Finally a father.

Wow, what a difference a year can make.

Happy father's day, my sweet husband. I am amazed at the journey that we've been on this last year, especially the last six weeks. I love being a mommy with you by my side.

Seeing you as a daddy has made me fall in love with you all over again. J had you wrapped around his tiny finger the second you laid eyes on him.


You're so attentive to him. You make him smile and coo like no one else. You've gotten quite good at changing those poopy diapers even though you swore you wouldn't touch them. Your reflexes have saved you several times from the stream of pee that usually hits me in the face. I love how excited you get talking about football games, hair cuts, fishing trips and picking out future girlfriends. Just like any proud daddy, you can't wait to show him off and brag to family, friends and strangers.


God chose YOU to be J's father. And what a lucky boy he is for that!

Just like I could never have imagined we would be here with this beautiful little boy in our arms today, I have no idea where our journey to parenthood will take us. But, I take comfort in knowing that regardless of where our babies come from: the 'ol fashioned way, a test tube or petri dish, a phone call from a stranger or me stealing babies from the nursery - I know that you will and can love them all with every inch of yourself. I know you share the same fears that I do, but I thank you for being my rock through this amazing, painful and beautiful journey. You never hold back - you love J with everything that you have. You remind me to have faith and relish in the joy of right now and because of that I am a better mother to him.

Happy father's day, Heath. And here's to many, many more!



And, to my own dad: I love you dearly. Just like with Heath and I, this little guy has stolen your heart as well. I love seeing you in this new role as grandpa - you're already a pro at it. I am forever grateful for the support you gave me whether that came in the form of hugs, money or horses :). Happy Father's day, Pops - I love you!

Friday, June 19, 2009

newborn pics

Busy. Will update soon!

For now - feast your eyes on these.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

rollin'

Our little man turned one month old on the 3rd. We've had him for 4 weeks yesterday. I can't believe how quickly time is going. He changes every day and is so alert and active. He has already started rolling over (see the video proof below) and pushing himself across the floor. I think we're going to have an early crawler and walker on our hands!


video

We took J to my end of the year peds banquet last night. My mom was supposed to watch him but ended up being really sick. Luckily he is quite content in his carseat and just slept through the whole thing. He even slept through the 15 people passing him around at the end! I won the Intern Teaching Award. It's a peer selected award and it was quite an honor to recieve it! I have such an amazing intern class that everyone was very deserving.



In other J news, he was scheduled to have a visit with his mom on Friday. She didn't show. This is good news for us, but his father and grandma did show up. This was the first I'd heard of them since we've had J. I wasn't aware that dad was going to be in the picture at all. I'm not too worried about him getting custody. He's been arrested for child abuse and has a lot of the same issues as mom does. But, I am worried about grandma. I'm not sure if she would be interested in taking him or if DHS would even allow it. I feel secure with him right now, but worried that family is going to start coming out of the woodwork. I'm interested to hear back from my case worker what the story is with why mom didn't show up and how involved dad/grandma will be. We're headed to court on Monday and will hopefully find out about mom's treatment plan and how willing she will be to work on getting J back. Regardless of what her worker says, mom's actions show that she isn't very interested.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

just the three of us.

Thanks so much for all the comments. You were right. All of you, for different reasons.

We decided not to go any further. I asked around today and the kiddo really does need quite a bit of care medically, not to mention the mental and emotional aspects of it all.

I think I knew last night that it wasn't the right thing for us, but Heath was game from the second he heard there was a little boy that needed placement. So far, each time we've gotten an "offer" (not sure what other word to use....) Heath has been the one to say "YES!" right away and I'm more level headed. We're both very emotionally driven when it comes to decisions, but thankfully I've learned to step away from the situation, evaluate and then move forward with my emotions in check.

I just appreciate the honesty and prayer you lent us and for not saying that I'm out of my mind even though I'm sure it appeared that way! Part of what I love about blogging is the feedback as well as the clarity that comes with just typing it out.

I can definitely see us moving forward with something like this in the not so distant (i.e. 6 months to a year or two) future but this just wasn't the right time or the right kiddo. Regardless, it's taught me that what I knew or thought I knew for our future family isn't what will necessarily be. I assumed we would have our own children and then adopt one day. That plan changed to adoption and then IVF for bio kids. Now I could see adopting a brood and being perfectly content. Who knows what God has in store, but it's exciting to see it unfold.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

insane.

Tell me why Heath and I are seriously contemplating taking home a 2 1/2 year old boy from the hospital that needs placement. Rights will likely be terminated as DHS is already recommending termination. Are we out of our honkey tonk minds?

My mom's opinion (which I highly value): This isn't what we planned and we should probably space them out as if we were actually having children ourselves.

My response: Having J has completely opened us up to the idea of forming our family in a way we'd never imagined. We want to be parents - we don't care what shape, form or color that comes in. We have boat loads of love to give and this child needs it. Sounds pretty simple.

For the record, I do know that it's a crazy, hair brained idea. But, I can't stop thinking about how it would work.

Thoughts? Opinions? Give it to me straight, I can take it.

J says "Girl, you craaaaazy!"