Thursday, January 31, 2008

Decisions, decisions.

I'm really writing this one for myself (not that anyone but me even reads this thing). So, that when I'm torn between OU and UW, I can re-read this. I think I'm having a moment of clarity right now, so I'd better write it down.
I was talking to my sister yesterday and was feeling really frustrated with the fact that I can't make a decision. I literally change my mind daily. I just can't do it anymore.
But today, I've decided on Madison. Usually when I make a decision, if it's the right choice, I feel at ease with my decision. But no matter which one I choose, I still feel like it's the wrong decision. But, when I compare the reasons I'm sad about not staying at OU/Madison, they're completely different. My reasons for not wanting to leave OKC are all emotional: I'll miss out on OU football games, I won't be able to stay on the admissions board, I'll miss our cute house...etc. But, with Madison, it's different. I'll miss out on an amazing opportunity, a wonderful children's hospital, the chance to live in a really cool city, meet new people, do new things... I think the reason I don't feel at ease when I decide to put Madison as #1 is because I'm scared. It's not an emotion that I'm very familiar with. But, being scared isn't a bad thing. I owe it to myself to try it out.
So, today, I choose Madison. And, I finally feel like this is the right choice. If, I stay in OK, or don't at least try to go to UW, I think I'll always wonder "what if?". I don't like to have regrets, but I think in that case I might have a few. If I go to Madison, even if I hate it, there is nothing to regret. I've given it a try, it's only three years, and I'll high tail it back to good 'ol Oklahoma when it's all said and done.
So, there you have. I've made a decision. And unlike the last few months...I think this one is for good.
I hope.

Monday, January 21, 2008

grandma shoes

I have some good news, finally! I went to see an orthopedic surgeon on Friday since my family practice doc didn't think my foot was healing as quickly as it should (or at all). I was sure I would end up with a cast or worse, a date for surgery. But, I was told that it was looking pretty good and I could actually start wearing a "stiff soled shoe". Unfortunately, I don't think I own any orthopedic shoes, and it's just as easy to wear my lovely boot. I'm actually growing quite fond of it. So, I'll continue to wear out all of my right shoes for at least another 3 weeks, but at least things are looking up.

Other news, I started working on my rank list today. I still don't have a clue what we're going to do. I go back and forth between OKC and Madison for my top choice almost daily. Just to make the decision more difficult, I think I'll post a little list of why I would love to spend the next three years in either location...
1. We're already here...which makes life a little easier.
2. I love the program at OU.
3. If we didn't move, we could afford to move in to a bigger, more family-friendly home...and soon! (which also means starting a family sooner!)
4. Close to family. This actually should probably be number 1, but moving away from them might not be so bad either ;) Really, I do love the idea of Heath and I being on our own for once...but that should go on the Madison list...nevermind.
5. OU Football! Ok, so that's not really on my list, but it's definitely one of the major reasons Heath wants to stick around. Don't tell him, but I'm actually starting to like going to OU games.

1. It would be really fun to move away for 3 years. I'm sure we'll come back, so it would just be a little extended vacation.
2. Brand spankin' new Children's Hospital.
3. Loved the people. I really felt like I fit in there.
4. It's just a cool city. Very educated, out-doorsy, and clean. Plus, amazing shopping and restaurants.
5. Go Packers! Thought I'd throw this on here just to even it out.

So, now do you see why this is so difficult? I guess we'll just see what happens.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

flying is for the birds.

I'm not much of a blogger, but I've had an unfortunate turn of events over the last few months and I think I should write about them.

1. As many of you know, I broke my foot. Yes. That's all I have to say about that.

2. I've also started on the interview trail. As excited as I was about traveling the country and impressing people with my quick wit and charming good looks, the traveling part has not quite lived up to my expectations. Take my trip to Greenville, North Carolina for example. My flight to Charlotte was delayed which made me miss my connection to Greenville. The next flight was scheduled to arrive in G'ville only 30 minutes before the resident dinner. That leaves barely enough time to wash the airport skank off my face, but I can deal. So, I get to G'ville, but my luggage does not. I have my garment bag (which has my good 'ol suit inside) but not my bag with every other important item in it. Of course, I cry. Go to CVS and Walmart and drop a hundred bucks. And go to dinner in the clothes I'd worn all day. Don't worry, I still looked cute. Then my luggage arrives an hour later. Great. Proceed to the next day, my iPod gets stolen out of my hotel room. I make it home safely to OKC, but my luggage doesn't. What a trip!

I thought my traveling woes were behind me until I went to Orange County last week. The first half of the trip was fairly uneventful, but as I'm sitting in the John Wayne airport to fly home, they tell us that our plane had "flap" (what's a flap?) problems and our plane went to L.A. They offered to bus us to L.A (oh, yippee!) and our flight would only be delayed by 3 hours. That put my arrival in Dallas at 3 a.m. But that's not all! As I'm standing in line for security at LAX, I reach up and my diamond earring is gone. Yes. Gone. I'm still sick to my stomach thinking about it. I think Heath is down-grading me to C.Z. now.

Now, surely no one has enough bad luck for this to happen a third time. Ha. I left OKC for Madison, WI yesterday. I had a connection in Detroit which was scheduled to leave at noon. Due to fog in Madison, the flight was canceled at 4:30 p.m. Luckily I had found a gang of nice Madisonians to hang out with all day. We ended up getting our flight switched to Milwaukee, and the lovely Madisonites gave me a ride to Madison. BUT, my luggage was not so lucky. I got to interview for the University of Wisconsin residency program today (my top choice, by the way) in the clothes I had been wearing since 4 a.m. yesterday. And, I'm not one of those girls who gets all fancy just to hop on an airplane. I couldn't be so lucky as to actually wear decent clothes on the plane. So, I was stuck interviewing in torn up jeans, a loafer (yes, as in one loafer), and a stretched out and wrinkled white t-shirt. I wouldn't even go to the grocery store looking the way I did at my interview this morning, yet here I am trying to impress these people with no make up and my hair flat to my head. At least my underwear was clean. I washed 'em up real good in the hotel sink.

So, I'm home. Finally. After a lot of tears and stress.

3. I lost my camera that I just bought two weeks ago. Actually it was stolen. Yeah, that's what happened.

That's all for now. But I think that's enough.