keep 'em coming.

My friend Sarah called last night to let us know that she had spoken to BM's (we'll call her A now, we found out her name last night) sister. A brought up adoption again and asked for our contact info. So, she knows our first names and my cell phone number.

She's due in two weeks apparently and has done absolutely nothing to prepare for a baby. She says she still not made a decision either way, but she has not thought about a name, hasn't bought a crib, car seat, nothing!

I fell asleep praying about it and woke up thinking about it. I have a feeling the next few days are going to be verrrrry long. I'm trying to find the perfect balance between optimism and realism. I'm guarding my heart (or trying to) but at the same time vividly picturing baby showers, taking her up to work to meet everyone, falling asleep on the couch with her on my chest, rushing out for a car seat and crib in the next few weeks...

I've allowed my mind to go way farther with this than I was planning. Last night I just prayed that God would prepare us for whatever decision was made. I would like to say that our chances are 50/50 at this point, but I'm sure that's being a little generous on our behalf.

I'm planning on calling my uncle, the judge, today and asking for a few names of good lawyers. Until this point I've been afraid to start getting things lined up, but now I feel like I need to at least lay a little ground work.

So, I'm asking for it again. Lots of prayers. I know you've already been doing it, but please specifically pray for A as she makes the toughest decision of her life and that God would continue to guard our hearts and prepare us for His plan.

Be on the look out for a shopping related post later this afternoon. I'm in the need for some distractions today and I prescribed myself a little retail therapy.