Sunday, June 21, 2009

Finally a father.

Wow, what a difference a year can make.

Happy father's day, my sweet husband. I am amazed at the journey that we've been on this last year, especially the last six weeks. I love being a mommy with you by my side.

Seeing you as a daddy has made me fall in love with you all over again. J had you wrapped around his tiny finger the second you laid eyes on him.

You're so attentive to him. You make him smile and coo like no one else. You've gotten quite good at changing those poopy diapers even though you swore you wouldn't touch them. Your reflexes have saved you several times from the stream of pee that usually hits me in the face. I love how excited you get talking about football games, hair cuts, fishing trips and picking out future girlfriends. Just like any proud daddy, you can't wait to show him off and brag to family, friends and strangers.

God chose YOU to be J's father. And what a lucky boy he is for that!

Just like I could never have imagined we would be here with this beautiful little boy in our arms today, I have no idea where our journey to parenthood will take us. But, I take comfort in knowing that regardless of where our babies come from: the 'ol fashioned way, a test tube or petri dish, a phone call from a stranger or me stealing babies from the nursery - I know that you will and can love them all with every inch of yourself. I know you share the same fears that I do, but I thank you for being my rock through this amazing, painful and beautiful journey. You never hold back - you love J with everything that you have. You remind me to have faith and relish in the joy of right now and because of that I am a better mother to him.

Happy father's day, Heath. And here's to many, many more!

And, to my own dad: I love you dearly. Just like with Heath and I, this little guy has stolen your heart as well. I love seeing you in this new role as grandpa - you're already a pro at it. I am forever grateful for the support you gave me whether that came in the form of hugs, money or horses :). Happy Father's day, Pops - I love you!


Melodie said...

made me a little teary! today we can be thankful for husbands that didn't need a baby to look like them. but instead they embraced adoption and supported us through a different kind of journey! not all men would do it. so i suspect you have an amazing one in your arms! happy father's day to heath!

Julia said...

what a beautiful post, Erin. Congrats to Heath and you, of course!

Jessalynn said...

Oh, Erin! I'm so happy for you two! You all are truly doing something wonderful.

Oh, and if you steal a baby from the nursery, will you go ahead and steal one for me? hehehe....

hopeful #1 said...

Just the sweetest posts every! Happy Father's day to Heath!

LeeAnn said...

That was so sweetly written! I'm so happy for you guys.

Molly said...

I love Melodie's comment about dad's not needing sons that look like them. We are indeed blessed with great men and I think it's incredible that you see that in Heath. All too often women take for granted what they have in their spouse. I am happy for you that you praise God for what you have been blessed with.

I love how you two share your fears with one another and talk each other through it. He could not be more right about his words about J. You and J are blessed to have him!