easy peasy.

30 minutes. That's how long the contractor was here. She was young, cute and totally someone I'd want to be friends with. She handed us about 2,364 questions to fill out (rather than spending hours asking us and then typing our response) and said that she'd probably have our contract ready to sign in 3 weeks or so!

Maybe I'm missing something, but I'm pretty sure we were told that once our classes were complete (March 30th) and our contract was signed we could have a placement at any time. Seriously???

I'll be emailing Beth at A'sH tomorrow to clarify before I start dancing around my living room - I'll let you know the verdict.

So, the big question that everyone keeps asking is "how the heck are you going to deal with giving a baby back after loving on it for x amount of time?"

I HAVE NO IDEA! All I know is that I feel, with 100% certainty, that this is what we're supposed to be doing right now. I am scared to death to think of having to give a baby back. Tears are sneaking up on me just typing about it. I don't know why God has chosen us to do this. It certainly isn't how I ever imagined I would build a family. But, I have faith that, if this is what God has had planned for us all along, He will give us the tools to deal. It's scary, and I hope that we don't have to say goodbye to many little ones before we find our forever baby, but I know its a possibility.

As scared as I am - I am giddy with excitement about what this means for us. I talked to my friend Kisha today. She said that just reading my last post, she could see the smile on my face. And, she's right. I feel so at peace, so full - and it's amazing! I really am happy. And, now that I think about it, it's been awhile.

That's all for now. I've got a questionnaire to knock out.

p.s. I'm totally going back to Rink to pick up that yellow dresser this weekend. It better be there - it's meant to be :)